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|Friday, November 11th, 2011|
Hi, im not very new here I suppose I use to have an account.
i am anorexic and these are my stats
height: 5 '7
|Wednesday, September 21st, 2011|
I hate myself right now
I feel so gross right now, I went out to eat with my friends thinking i was only going to get water and when i went to the bathroom they ordered for me. I don't want them to know so i scarfed down about 15 chips covered in greasy cheese to show them that i don't not eat all the time. no one knows and now i just hate myself for eating those when i could've avoided the situation like i've done a million times... i guess not this time
|Friday, July 4th, 2008|
darn! I was doing so good and then my sister asked me if I wanted some dessert. I had to go and get something or I would have stood out. I did okay during dinner. I didnt eat anything I fixed a plate took it with me and then didnt eat it. I ate about a cup each of spagettii, baked beans, macaroni and cheese, mexican salad, cabbage and a hamburger with no bun. Then for dessert I had a big piece of carmel cake, a chocolate pudding whipped cream thing, butter bread something. I think I only puked up a piece of cake or something. I didnt want anyone to hear so it was really difficult to gag myself. I dont know what the heck I was thinking.How could I? I'm throwing away what I've taken so long and worked so hard to get. I can't keep eating. My life in general has been better since I have lost the weight. If I gain all that back I will be the unattractive fat loser I was.I can't waste my life like that. I have tried to do a 7 day fast since April with no luck. From now on it will be different. Right now I feel like ( Read more...Collapse )
|Wednesday, May 21st, 2008|
Wow I am finally doing really good. I'm watching Pageant Place and its really good thinspiration. I also am just sick of being fat. I had to fight the urge earlier to eat a handful of some chex mix. I feel really good about being able to fast for the next 7 days. I hope in that time I can take off at least 20lbs. Anyone wanna join my im is firstname.lastname@example.org ( thinspoCollapse )
|Wednesday, March 12th, 2008|
My name is Traci, I'm 21 and I've been ana since I was 14. In the past fasting has been more successful when I've had a fasting buddy. So, if anyone would like to be fasing buddies you can text me at 402-813-1098. I'm starting (over) today
|Sunday, June 18th, 2006|
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|Thursday, April 20th, 2006|
my first post
Short Term Goal:105
Long Term Goal:90
How long have you had your ED: I have been obsessed with food and my body issues since first grade, since middle school I have been restricting, and in high I started throwing up. For two years I was throwing up at least three times a day, binging and purging.
What is your diognosis: Bulimic with anorexic tendencies
Have you ever been in the hospital:no
Why do you want to join this community: I have been relapsing and I miss being me. I miss the control, I miss what defined me. Current Mood: tired
|Monday, October 3rd, 2005|
my girlfriend is my corset
i cannot eat when i am around her and i love it
unless she tells me to eat, then i 'nibble' as she says
we fit like that. she needs to gain weight i need to loose some.
so i feed off of her soul while she eats , and i dont.
i wish she was always around.
|Monday, September 12th, 2005|
From the outside the group(s) that I hang out with are very annoying typical rich L.A. kids with everything they want. From the inside it's so different & almost everyone is "anorexic" it's so annoying. The people who really are and aren't just doing it, because their "friend" Lidnsey Lohan is don't say anything. I pretend to eat I pretend like I'm okay I fake it. Some of the dumb bitches in my group of "friends" are so fucking dumb they scream and parade around "I'm a starving child", "hey let's do some more coke so we can lose weight", "I haven't eaten in 1 day oh my god I'm so anorexic", "Isn't my red anorexic bracelet hott", and so on. At first I was amazed oh wow these people are upfront and don't give a fuck, but it's just a clan haha a clan of annoying rich snoby kids snorting coke every fucking day, because everyone is too lazy to actually exercise.
This kills me... my friend does coke then gets drunk (consumes about 1000 cals or more in alcohol) then is soo drunk and goes to a fast good restaurant to get food... what the fuck was the point?
Anyone else have "friends" like that?
I use the term friends losely, because hardly anyone out here is really you're friend and they'll stab you the back the 1st chance they get.
|Friday, September 9th, 2005|
I love when I get over things then it all comes back.
Oh I'm over him... and then a couple days later he's back.
I haven't thrown up in a week wow good job... i spent practically the whole week on my knees.
I have been eating okay lately and I haven't been gaining weight and I'm actually losing and being somewhat healthy, the next week I'm not eating and exercising until I pass out.
Wow I'm sober good job to me... the next day till the next month I'm on a coke binge.
What's the fucking point anymore?
|Tuesday, September 6th, 2005|
amyone else get this sick feeling when they eat like nausea. I'm not sure if it's psychological or what, but when I eat I feel sick to my stomach like I want to die and I need to stop even one bite of food makes me sick. Is this all mental? or am i allergic to food... haha
|Friday, August 19th, 2005|
|Wednesday, July 13th, 2005|
does anyone know how much IPecac costs??
|Tuesday, July 12th, 2005|
|Sunday, June 26th, 2005|
Ive gone vegan again in my last desperate attempt to not binge. I've lost fourteen of the pounds I gained and flipped out on myself because I look bigger, even though I'm lighter. Apparently i've lost all of my muscle, I look disgusting. I hate bingeing(spelling). My weight fluctuates too much for its own good: Last June, I was 135, By August, I was 118, by October, I was 101 (my lowest since the sixth grade, I'm a senior now), and due to my therapist's forcing me to gain weight, by November I was 125. In January I fell to 115 again, but by March, I was 130 and In the beginning of May I hit my highest all time weight of 138, only to get down to 119 by May 27th and gain about 10 pounds by June 10th. Now, I'm 124, I will not give in this time; I will be thin and then even thinner. My weight hasn't been stable since 7th grade, I blame the contorted body image I developed in dance class and a 9 year old sister who weighs more than I do. Fat (people and just fat in general) disgust(s) me. Working in a deli aids in my disgust- most of the customers are gross and so is the lunchmeat.
I've finally stopped seeing my therapist and my psychologist. I'm free to do what I want- get down below 100.
Ed-nos with manic depression and OCD tendencies- No more treatment. Lovely. <3
|Thursday, May 24th, 2029|
hmmm...But,starving is so convenient and satisfying.
Most of it I agree with, but cutting Calories and working out, but not loseing the weight...scares me. My eating habits are so fucked I dont want to get on the scale for fear of going into a panic attack. I was told I look 140-150...gag.
Does anyone think If eating raw fruits and veggies and packing in two sessions at the gym plus walking like crazy, would show fast results and tone me up by july?
*I've recently discoved ADHD medication give me tons of energy and curbs hunger...but on the other hand its horrible for insomnia. I'd most def recommend ADD/ADHD meds to anyone who is thinking about taking a diet pill...Ridilin and Adderal are most likely much safer then over the counter diet pills(not 100% positive on that)...but look at what eufedra was doing to people taking stackers. One of the biggest ADD/ADHD meds are hard to get ahold of unless you know someone who takes them. If you have either ADD or ADHD they will somewhat sedate you, rather then rev you up.http://www.add-adhd-help-center.com/adderall_side_effects.htm
ADD/ADHD med infohttp://www.something-fishy.org/dangers/methods.php
Diet pill info
|Saturday, May 14th, 2005|
can someone please post pictures of ana girls for me....i have no time and i havent been able to find that many....pleaseee i beg you!!!
|Monday, May 9th, 2005|
I was wondering if someone could provide me w/ info on corset training I would love to start corset training. Any info is greatly appreciated esp. personal expierences.
|Wednesday, April 27th, 2005|
hello i am new to this community
Short Term Goal:105
Long Term Goal:100 or less
How long have you had your ED:about a month
What is your diognosis:ana and mia
Have you ever been in the hospital:not yet
Why do you want to join this community:to get some suport and suport others Current Mood: sick
a little help.
ok sumtimes i have cravings for food, and all i need is a little bit and then i'll be fine. But usually i like to have something sweet or w/ a lot of flavor. Most things i like have a lot of calories. i guess what i'm asking is are there any good foods that i can eat just enough of so i dont pass out but that will keep me from gaining any weight?
oh and also: my friend tells me that if you drink like 6 bottles of water a day, it helps you become skinnier quicker. i don't usually drink a lot of water, and so i'm not sure if this is true. If anyone knows the facts/truth behind this, your input would be appreciated. thanks.